Ok, there is no way to begin, but to begin. I have been overweight for a goodly portion of my life, at this point, was not really a chubby child, but when i got pregnant, way back in the dark ages, i gained 70#. Off and on ever since then i have been on this struggle to loose weight, i have won a couple of times, then put it back on. So yo-yo dieting has been a part of my life. Well i have decided to have a gastric by-pass, Roux-en-y, is what it is called and it is the one the insurance will pay for. BUT i have to loose 20# first :) now if this was so easy i wouldn't be going to these measures one would ask, which is what i did. But that is just the way it is. So am on the road to the doctor's appointments and testing. Don't know why i felt the need to share, except it is a part of my life and so, this blog. Maybe the struggle will be helpful to some, i am sure not so to others. It is a tool and not a final solution and i am in a point in life where i need this tool. And medical science has progressed on this point too, to a point where i feel relatively safe with it. Don't have alot of physical problems, but there are things if not addressed are going to be cause for worry in the future if i don't change my wicked ways :) Also felt this would hold me more accountable rather than holding what i was going thru close to me only. I also want a record, why i don't know, just do, to look back on and see what i had to go through to make it an accomplished goal/dream.
I just hope this does not involve alot of whining, i guess it doesn't have to if i don't make it that way, right???!!!!
I have in mind a bucket list of things i would like to do, you all know THE bucket list and many of these things i can't do, due to my weight. For example: were i to go to the Grand Canyon and want to go to the bottom on a mule, i could not as u can't weigh more than 200# (poor mules) can't sky dive, try to find a wet suit for scuba diving anywhere let alone off the Palancar Reef in Cozumel, Mexico! hiking, walking at times is a chore and very tiring for any length of time, going to certain restaurants because i would not fit in the chair. I know, this is a sad list. If i want to do it i want to be able to DO it and not have to think about the weight issue thing. But all things that one thinks of when one is weight challenged. Even sitting on a tour bus, or God forbid a plane with the extension seat belt. Which i bought one of my own, so i don't have to ask for it in front of everyone. The looks, whispers, i am not deaf people! I am a person, a caring, feeling person who some people say is quite lovely (not to bang my drum) and i will be the same person at a size 16 (not a lofty goal) instead of a 30, yes, that's right, i did not make a key error. I refuse to wear tight clothes but prefer ones that fit accordingly
Oh, and my son is not very happy with me, thinks i can just diet it away. I feel i have more than tried that, any given number of ways: Weight Watchers, Jenny Craig, Diet Center, Herb-A-Life, fitness programs, Richard Simmons, i mean if i had all the money i have spent on trying to loose weight, i could probably pay outright for this house!!!!
Today was the nutritionist, who was helpful. Found out half my body weight is lean muscle mass, but that means that half is fat too, but guess this is good, as many others are worse, geez, can't imagine that....
Then back to normal everyday: i went to get the tires rotated on the car, then to the Desch Co Sheriff's office to change the address on my concealed gun permit, if i had to, if it was a problem, well yes it had to be done, $15, everything cost something. Did not cost anything to change the address on my driver's license, on-line. Oh well, Hell...... then in the parking lot, dropped my phone and it popped apart, battery fell out. Appeared to be only one way to get it back in, it would not work, so had to go the Sprint store, he took the battery out, put it back and it worked, now why not for me???? Then to the bank as the sheriff's office took my last $$$. now i am back home. Once again listening to the thumpity thump of the road building and dynamiting, THAT really upsets Carl and Luci!!! AND back to more unpacking. Making decisions where things go, am tired of doing that, but want to get the garage organized and can't do that with all the 'stuff' in there.
Take Care All!!!!