Wishing

 Just love that SnapChat.. get all kinds of cool and odd pictures, and i have no wrinkles... can u imagine???

Today is a year since my friend passed away.  It is a sad day. It is Valentines Day.... i never celebrate that day anyway.. send candy to the kiddoes, but that is the extent.. sometimes i get flowers and sometimes not, this year .... not... o well that is life, off again, on again...It has been an awful year of not having her around, the many 'firsts' without her here, no one to text, to face time with, to share, to ask questions about things like the new roof, like my health, do i need to get excited about this or that or not.... she is one of longest relationships i have had... other than my parents, by brothers, high school friends, sister in law.. that is about it.  I have really, really missed her. There are SO many things, so many feelings... so many wants and needs and hurting and tears and sadness...   i just wish she was here:   to harass, to share, to talk to, to laugh with, to smile, to have my back. to be a sounding board, to get one of those great big hugs, to go get Starbucks, Panera, Noodles, Whiteys,  go to movies, to just drive around looking at houses like she liked to do, explore new places, go on road trips

God Bless and Keep you Carol, you are more missed than you could ever know