celebrate

 Just like this picture, taken thru  screen gives it an odd texture.

Nothing else, just trying to stay cool, do house work stuff, water, let the dog in and out... saw on facebook where someones response to being asked all the time what they did now that you are retired ( i get this all the time) response was, i don't know but it makes me tired.... hahaha and that is the truth! and i am getting worse and worse about going out... 4th of july parade today and did not even think about wanting to go.  There was a time i would never consider missing a parade!! LOVE parades and seeing all the kids and different ways people put floats together and the horses/princesses of the rodeos all around us, (Burns always had the prettiest and most put together) and the guys with their wheelbarrows picking up the resulting poop!!  and throw in a marching band or two and boy!! you had a good time.  Went to them with Brian as he was growing up, took my grandma, then mom and dad... get there early and drive them to the place you are going to sit, get them all out and set up in the chairs, then go find a place to park the car and hike back to where they were..   but i just can't even think of all the moving parts.   someone should be taking me!!!

Brian does not work tomorrow, day off, so he does not have to get up early and he is taking forever to get the bbq set up and going and i am starving!!!

i really want to go on rides and see some of the mountain roads and sights around and about that i am missing, but just the thought of doing that myself is sort of self defeating, causes anxiety... don't like the feeling..

And today is friend Carol's birthday or what would have been her birthday and it just does not feel like a time to celebrate anything.. i just feel so lost w/o her here to be a sounding board for 'things' there is just nothing and no one to replace that.

Take Care and God Bless