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 The end of the year. the last week. We had a nice family brunch on Christmas Eve, everyone went their way. then i was alone. this being alone is horrid really.  today i put all xmas away, it is done and over and don't like it staying around.. another reminder of things past. I had gotten some See's suckers for the kids, hung them in the tree, then apparently immediately forgot them, as there they were when i was putting the ornaments away.  I got two books that i really wanted from Robin and Brian and look forward to reading them.

the days are at least getting more daylight every day, which is a good thing.  the yard is all brown and dead. the birds get really excited when i put food out for them and it is gone in no time.

This was the little, tiny amount of snow we woke up to xmas morning.. it was gone within an hour i think 

The days have really been warm, even today it is warm, where yesterday morning it was cold enough for that bit of snow.  We have only had a couple days with freezing weather, it is an odd winter, for sure.. wonder if it will ever REALLY be winter. probably next month i will look back on these words in wonder,  as it will be cold finally.

These are the books, and a tiny car freshener doxie that i got.

i just can't get past that i must have done something for Finn to have the probs he did. He got into something, i must not have been watching good enough.  He was a chewer, loved getting into things, that would seem improbable, yet he found interesting to a degree.  He did spit out things, that obviously did not taste good or he did not like. and we were always going into to his mouth to fish out something he had gotten that he was not supposed to have.  he was such a sweet little guy, so active, loving, smart. I miss him dreadfully. everything here reminds me of him or things he did, the way he would fly about the house, greet us when we came home.  He knew the sound of robin and brian's car and knew before we could see them that they were on the way, near. He loved looking out the front window on everything that happened in our little cul de sac, people and dogs walking by. the neighbors coming home or moving their garbage cans.. he never ran off when the door was opened, he would run out, but not far from me.. He loved me and wanted to be near always...  in some way, i wish i knew how, i failed him

Take Care and God Bless All, Happy and Blessed New Year